I'm Trading my Sorrow.

I just returned from a very difficult morning. The sister of one of the kids we sponsor under the scholarship's is very sick. I was asked to see if there is anything that we could do to help.. I enlisted the help of Dr Tatyana on this one. We worked our way through the maze of apartments and ended up at a very tidy and very empty apartment of a great grandma and a 15 year old girl. Her name is Nargiza. She has been suffering with Kidney problems.. She thinks that the hospitals won't help her.... the problem is not that they won't, it is that they can't help her.. Her kidneys have shut down and she would need dialysis and a transplant.. the dialysis are possible here for about $2000 for a round of treatments, but a transplant is not possible, so they feel that there is no sense in the dialysis... Whats even harder is that they have not told the girl or the rest of her family the situation, only the Grandma knows. I don't know how I will explain to Kamala the situation at this time. "BUT GOD" there is nothing that can be done for her...
In 30 minutes I will be heading to the capital city to take some kids shopping and then purchase beds for the seniors home.... how do I smile and share in their excitement .... give them they day like no other when the joy of the day has been stolen... I guess I know the answer to that , it's just that it is easier said then done!

I'm trading my sorrow, I'm trading my shame, I'm laying it down for the joy of
the Lord. I'm trading my sickness , I'm trading my pain, I'm laying it down for the
joy of the Lord.
I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned ,Struck
down but not destroyed, I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure
And his joy's gonna be my strength. Though the sorrow may last for the night His
joy comes with the morning And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord ,Yes
Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord, Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen