Tuesday, April 07, 2009

I'm Trading my Sorrow.

I just returned from a very difficult morning. The sister of one of the kids we sponsor under the scholarship's is very sick. I was asked to see if there is anything that we could do to help.. I enlisted the help of Dr Tatyana on this one. We worked our way through the maze of apartments and ended up at a very tidy and very empty apartment of a great grandma and a 15 year old girl. Her name is Nargiza. She has been suffering with Kidney problems.. She thinks that the hospitals won't help her.... the problem is not that they won't, it is that they can't help her.. Her kidneys have shut down and she would need dialysis and a transplant.. the dialysis are possible here for about $2000 for a round of treatments, but a transplant is not possible, so they feel that there is no sense in the dialysis... Whats even harder is that they have not told the girl or the rest of her family the situation, only the Grandma knows. I don't know how I will explain to Kamala the situation at this time. "BUT GOD" there is nothing that can be done for her...
In 30 minutes I will be heading to the capital city to take some kids shopping and then purchase beds for the seniors home.... how do I smile and share in their excitement .... give them they day like no other when the joy of the day has been stolen... I guess I know the answer to that , it's just that it is easier said then done!

I'm trading my sorrow, I'm trading my shame, I'm laying it down for the joy of
the Lord. I'm trading my sickness , I'm trading my pain, I'm laying it down for the
joy of the Lord.
I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned ,Struck
down but not destroyed, I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure
And his joy's gonna be my strength. Though the sorrow may last for the night His
joy comes with the morning And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord ,Yes
Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord, Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

john,

I know your heart in times like these, but what is more important is that God knows. Trusting that you can rest your heart in Him.
I remember what Eric Drain said to me once, as a firefighter he had to keep in mind that he was there to help people in whatever way he could, and leave what he could not help them with to God. I pray that your heart can be at peace, because anyone that knows you, will know that if it can be done by human hands, they would be yours.

Blessings brother

Dan :)

Anonymous said...

Your joy come from the Lord. The joy of the Lord is your strength. Enjoy you day in that joy.

PR

Mary from TN said...

Praying for peace for you and for Nargiza and her family. Praying for miracles in this situation. The joy of the LORD truly is our strength in troubled times.

Mary from TN

LAMb International said...

Broken.

Anonymous said...

Prayers and praise for a God who cares and orders our every step along the way; prayers for a hope and a future and not harm; prayers for strength to go through what we cannot circumvent; prayers for a miracle so big it cannot be missed, ignored or overlooked; prayers for His glory to shine so we can give Him extra praises on top of the ones He so rightly deserves ~ regardless; prayers for noses to not have to hurt anymore or ever again!
May grace and peace abound to you and all our Kyrgyz Family. We love you truly ♥
EJR&S