Waiting at the door !

I have posted a lot about our friends in Central Asia recently, but have not talked a lot about where we are at as a family...
Every day brings us a little closer to drastic life changes... When we first thought about moving to Central Asia, there was so much we wanted to hang on to... there were so many obligations. I don't know why we hang on to things so tightly.. We have started to purge..some by choice such as the truck loads of STUFF that we have sold , given away, or simply taken to the dump... and then there is the STUFF that has been ripped from our hands over the last few months...Like the loss of Julie's mom or the un resolved devastation of my mom's house, and now the need to sell... Even our own home, rather then seeing it as a refuge or a home base, is starting to feel more like a millstone dragging us down...
The stress of Julie's job continues to grow, as her head is definitely in a land thousands of miles away... The girls have no excitement about returning to school, Bekah is ready to return to Central Asia today, and even has her correspondence courses picked out... Emma on the other hand has her room completely de cluttered, and is "ready to move"...I thought that with a busy work schedule this summer, maybe Bekah would get distracted, and not be so locked in to returning, but instead, with all the work, the girls have their "flights home" almost paid...
At this point all we can do is to be ready for what ever comes... there are still so many obstacles to overcome before we finally take the step, but at this rate, when the time comes...all that may be left will be 8 hockey bags packed and waiting at the door....